The Conception

Breaking the indecisive fast(more than an year!!) , I am into blogging again. This time in a very different stature - 'Expectant Mom' :-).
Yes.. The miracle of life is striking me for the past 7 months. This blog is dedicated to my 'Little Angel/King' - the thought of which ______________ me!!! (Loss of Adjectives).
One could just experience happiness,thrill,clouds of emotions when she gets conceived. Here is my story of the past 7 months.
It was in the end of march, the doubt arised. Am I conceived??!! A little tensed phase till it gets confirmed with the doc. It was April,the 1st - 'Fool's Day!!', we had fixed an appointment with the doctor. My husband was very relaxed and with me were my parents, in-laws and Grandma. The day started afresh but I vommitted my breakfast(was vommiting many a time before that). But that couldnt confirm me. The scan was scheduled around 11.30 am. It was around 5 in the evening, we met the doctor with the scan reports. The Doc said - 'THE BABY IS 6 WEEKS OLD!!' Yippeeee.. I had tears.. My husband hugged me. We all were in boundless joy. My brother who was in his Malaysia had called me umpteen times till then to hear the news!! The scan report just showed a single lump which my father said is a girl(ha ha ha). My aunt was expecting twins - but unluck to her!! Its single. Finally - The fool's day doesn't fool me.

So expectations grew from everyside. I informed my friends,who were all very shocked and spell-bound to hear this from their most favourite friend(Its me). The next generation is due(I am the first to bear a child in my gang of friends)and expected date for the baby to get delivered is Nov18th. All my pals who were all born in november felt proud, betting that the baby would be born on thier bday!!
Times after that were crucial for me. I was experiencing heavy nausea,vomitting. For the first 4 months I was out of my senses. My granny was near me,cooking and looking after me. I ate nothing,slept everytime, felt giddy all the time.My husband was very supportive just looking after me in every concern a man would. My team helped me a lot,which just accepted my absence from work almost a day every week. I grew very weak,thin,pale but with 'a small
bulge in my tummy' (yes!! Paapa grew well - Doc said). I lost the contact of all my friends, who did call me frequently to keep in touch with my health status,but dropped the call unattended. My bro Borg returned from his onsite and everyday would feel my small belly to feel the marvellous kid growing inside.
All over. I stepped into the month of July. It is all over. My naughty brother Ram had bought me a fantastic book about pregnancy. I started reading that. Fascinated -What complex is the biological system?? Unexplained wonder on the creation of a life. My husband said - 'Paapa heart beat Kaekudhu!!' - He had heared the heartbeat of the foetus some time in the midnight while i had been sleeping. 'Lucky Father!!'. The grandfather was even more anxious. My
Dad had dreamt that I have a girl and its sitting near him in car to buy milk(ha ha ha).

Days continued sweeter than before.Everyone dreaming!! One fine day, I was working at office. I felt some twitch in my stomach. Ayoyoyo Amebiosis?? Diarrhoea??What would happen to my child?? I was thinking and soon lost in my work!! Then again the same jerk,again,again.. "This is something NEW!!! " Yes.. Pappa was kicking me very slightly. I could feel it. It was overwhelming. My teammate felt the first kick of my Kutty. I called my hubby,mom,bro,dad,aunt,uncle,friends. Everyone felt the chill of my happiess. I pinged my friend Ishu who was at my client site (now too!! :-( ) - told her! She badly missed feeling my stomach. My friendly brother Deepu told me - "Akka!! Note the dates. Keep writing what all u experience these days. Your baby will feel happy when you show it later!!". Sorry Deepu - I couldn't do that daily. This blog would solve the purpose - I hope da!!

On July 25th, I had my fifth month anomaly scan. This scan would report the birth defects the foetus would have. This would be the most sickening moment for every to-be-parents. Not losing hope, we stepped in the scan center. The doc moved some object over my tummy. We viewed our child!! It was moving. We felt its hearbeat,saw its spinalchord, its face, its feet,hands,legs, everything in black and white. It was just for 5 mins, then after I had him/her visuallly in my dream, sometimes Fair-cute,some times Dark-smart. But everytime as my KID!!
I had a chance to be with my mother for around 10 days. Mother's care is unique!! I was experiencing. Now I am missing her a lot,but soon I will be with her for my delivery.

Days passed - My kid played fooball,jumped,kicked,danced - It spilt out every emotion it could produce into me. I started my normal diet back. All time browsing sites for baby's growtn,FAQ's on pregnancy and all. There wre group mails of my friends just choosing their assumption of the gender of my child. I started cooking,all activities back. I am hale and healthy now. My kid is double the time than me. Its very brisk now. My Close friend Jeni visited me!
Cooked for me a day and returned with a kick from my child( Gift!!! ). Almost everyday,every min I feel him/her in me. I speak, I scold, I sing, I preach. I live with my child now. My husband bids a 'Good Morn!' 'Good night Paapa Kutty!' every day. He wakes it up every day. This feeling is heavenly.

I am approaching my third trimester. Still 89 days more. I am excited. I will be with my parents again for few months. But once delivered the baby is for all. But now its mine!! Exclusively mine!! This feel just chills me.
Unfortunate Males - I feel now. Females by nature are a weeker sex(I accept - fact!!) . Let we be, for this gracious, inexplicable feel and emotion!! Greatest miss to the ruling gender of this world. I pity the men around me.
I hope every thing turns good and I will deliver a hale and healthy baby. I just felt to share this happy period, every mother would have, to my deep and close soul mates(Frns).

Hope to blog you soon happpppppily about my KID!! My ANGEL!!